Jesus, Lord, wreck your people in Your tangible love!
One evening, after service during prayer ministry time, I was on the floor, in the river of God, totally wrecked by His glory, gone, completely gone from the earth, caught up in the heavens, I will never forget! In the natural, before I left in glory, others were on the floor with me, co-drinkers of the new wine too! I heard their laughter and the music in the background, it was a Holy Ghost party, oh it was wonderful!! Just wonderful! Oh how we don’t want to miss heaven!! I want to be at every single Holy Ghost party, ball, gala, picnic, event, everywhere He is, I want to be!! I’m coming with you Holy Spirit!! Arms up high, take me!! Take me!! Ha. Glory!! Joy unspeakable!! Full of glory!!! Oh praise God!!! I feel like running!!
I found myself with Jesus, He looked exactly like you would think Jesus Christ of Nazareth looks, oh my, He is so beautiful!!! He is peace, He is truth, He is light! He is everything!!! He is so wonderful!! He is love and joy and laughter, He is so not stressed out about anything!! He is very life itself.
We were standing together on this narrow path, wide enough for two to walk together on, the path only went in one direction that I could see, only in front of us. The area was covered in lush green grass, trees on the far side of the path across from us, and there was a clearing between the trees where I could see this massive sea of water which looked as if it were glistening with diamonds! Sparkles of sunlight were dancing upon the top of the sea only there was no sun, oh it was the glory of God reflecting on the waters!!! So beautiful it was and is! I see it right now too!
We walked through the clearing to the edge of the water, there was quite an expanse of water, so much room in the water, between where we were and the opposite side. I could hear voices, many voices, coming from the other side of the water, I saw people playing in the water in the distance, none were on the side I was. I heard their laughter from afar, so much laughter, it sounded like the tinkling of glass, fine crystal, it was so pretty, I hear it even now, can you hear it? Ssssshhhh, listen……the tinkling of fine glass, the warmth of the glory realms, the splashing sounds as many played in the water filled with joy, the golden hues of glory spilling forth out of Jesus Christ, oh the sounds of heaven, my most favorite of sounds!!!
I wanted to go in the water so desperately. I asked Jesus if I could go in, He smiled at me and said “Yes, you can go in!” I walked right into the sea. I felt such joy, I began to splash the water all over myself, I felt freedom, I felt whole. I began to laugh and asked Jesus, “Is this water cleansing me?” He said very seriously, “No, it is my blood that cleanses you.”
Then He said, “This water is healing you, this is the washing of the water of my word.” (Ephesians 5:26 KJV). I love that, one definition of healing (Oxford Dictionaries) is the process of making or becoming sound. My mind becomes healed, sound, clean, when I wash it in the water of the word! My life becomes healed, sound, clean when I wash it in the water of the word!! Me, being cleansed from my sin by the power of the blood of Jesus, my mind, my life, healed, washed in the water of His word, sanctified and holy!! I felt so clean and alive, whole. I realized right then, that there was so much room in the water for everyone! There is room enough for all of mankind to come and be cleansed in the blood of Christ and to be washed in the water of His word. Oh that mankind would come!!
I knew it was time to step out of the water, I climbed out and I was instantly dry. He extended His right forearm towards me and I placed my left hand up under His arm. He was looking down at me smiling. He seems to always be smiling when He looks at me. I get all silly each time I look at Him, is true. I get all giggly and googly-eyed and laugh like I’m doing right now even!! Defenseless against His love. I love you my Jesus with all that I am and all that I will ever be!!!
He hears everything, every question, even those unspoken. Each time I read Psalm 23:2 “He maketh me to lie down in green pastures, He leadeth me beside the still waters” (KJV), I would think to myself, how does He make me lie down, what does He do, like do I get on my fours and He sits on my back and pushes me down? I never could understand how He could make me lie down. I now know!!!
Jesus led me down the path to another area through woods which opened to another clearing by a smaller area of still waters. To the right were rolling hills of wheat, hills that rolled what looked like forever, the wheat was vibrant in color, very heavy and bending under the weight of the heads of wheat ready for harvest, so ready.
Jesus Christ physically led me by still waters, He extended His right arm to me, I took it, and He alone led me to a place by still waters as He said in Psalms 23:2. Guess what else He did!!! He physically led me to the edge of the still waters in green grass and He laid down first!!! That’s how He does it!! He laid down first and I was compelled to lie down right next to Him!! That is how He makes us to lie down in green pastures!! Oh praise God! He goes before us in all things and we are compelled to follow!
Jesus turned on His side facing me, His back facing the still waters, and He dropped His left hand behind Him letting the tips of His fingers fall into the still waters. Instantly and I mean instantly, a pretty fish with big eyes wrapped its little mouth around his one finger tip. I leaned up against His side and looked down at the fish. It was so darling! His little mouth puckered, his little eyes open so wide on each side fixed on Jesus and his two little fins on both sides fluttering so fast to stay in one place staring at Jesus. I asked Jesus, “Is this fishing in heaven?” I was thinking it had to be because in heaven you wouldn’t use a hook to fish, that would hurt the fish and there isn’t any pain in heaven. Jesus chuckled and said, “No Kar, this isn’t fishing in heaven, this is my fish kissing me, and worshipping me. Here, all of my creation kisses me and worships me.” Before He finished speaking, we both were sitting upright. He had His knees pulled up, arms on His knees, I was staring up at Him watching Him stare at the hills of wheat, He suddenly looked so sad, I wanted to cry. He said “Here, all of my creation kisses me, loves me, worships me, but man does not.” I was so upset, I felt such pain, I felt His pain! I began to tell Him over and over, “I will love you Jesus, I will kiss you Jesus! I will worship you Jesus! I love you Jesus! I worship you Jesus! I kept saying that over and over to Him. I wanted Him to truly know how much I love Him.
I felt myself being shaken, gently shaken, I heard my name being called repeatedly, I couldn’t speak, all I knew is I was leaving where I was with Jesus and I could no longer see the kissy fish. I was so tongue tied from the glory realm that all I could hear was my name being called by those with me at the service and me asking them over and over, “Where’s the fissy kish? I don’t see the fissy kish! Where’s the fissy kish?” As the church sanctuary came into view and I was able to see my friends’ beautiful faces again, I felt saddened leaving, I wanted to stay there with Jesus forever, me and Him and the fissy kish.
I love you Jesus! I kiss you! I worship you with all my heart! I will tell the whole world!!